Its gone

Lifes death
But i came to win
Lifes gone..
Lifes dead?
But it cant be..
Without you
What can I do…
Lifes death
Gone and forgotten is the way
Of
Lifes death…

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is it ?? real….

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So another day has come but not yet gone.

all I do is wonder, worry, and plan

about, who, over what..

This I just do not know.

I love but I hate

I cry yet I am the cause

When do we know

when do we know  

WHEN 

will it be okay. Will I be back

Am i really back 

do i really care

do you really care

what is caring 

Do I love again

I just do not know 

McDonalds and me

Just me at Micky D’s . I come here everyday after I hit the “program”.. To wait on that stupid bus! Then off to Pops place to wait on the fake weed store to fucking open. I try not to be a junky but that spice (fake weed) helps my nerves.

people are quick to judge but in reality they trying to hide their own mis – comings.. So when u are judged, look to see who your accuser is.. then smile cause every minus is a future plus
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one of the prisons they held me captive at

one of the prisons they held me captive at

As much as I try not to get angry with ppl I do!! I mean some people are just so stinking dumb, how can you not become angry with them. Thing is , anger is so negative   I have been having a problem here lately with being negative. So I have decided to be positive. Think in a positive manner, do positive things because as you know what you give this life, that is what life will give you .. I just have to keep reminding myself that.. I love to write as well as take pictures ,so that is one positive thing I am going  to do more, well two things.. Write and take and edit my pictures.. The way I look at things is like this… Our body is a vessel that holds good and bad.. The more bad the less good there is inside your heart.. To have a better life or should I say feel less dirty is simple replace the evil with good. At first its hard but just like with anything once you start it becomes a GOOD habit..

  Being negative is so much easier than being positive , does that tell you anything ?.. Let me put it this way , you can not have a nice house if you put no effort into getting  one .. Same thing with life, you put no effort into having a good one , then you get what is given, and that is usually shit..

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be great!!!! —- full and then you will be great

sitting at McDonalds thinking about lifesdeath aka living. As humans some times we feel as though we cannot live without somethings/ someone. But we really can live without. I think bout it a lot because i am not working, and i feel as though i cannot live without my gadget.. Really I can, I just don’t wanna. My point is, I should just be thankful I’m alive and get to spend time w/ the ones I love. It’s not true for all but I’m blessed and I know things will be great… DO YOU KNOW IT IF NOT PRAY
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People!

I am not one for believing in all quote un quote fortune tellers.  I do believe at certain times of the year we act or even feel different, another words we react in certain ways at certain times of the year. I don’t think there’s a certain model to go by I just think that our energies and pheromones  change at this time of the year and make us act and react  differently.I know that I get very irritable and lash out at times like I’m more angry in the winter. I mean its so intense that its noticeable. I know the Sun has vitamins in its existence. And they probably make us feel better even make us more confident. I feel like I’m more confident when the weather is warm. But when its cold I’m like a sad sack not wanting to do anything. I’m telling the weather really does help determine my moods. I hate to use the word luck so ill use the word blessed instead, summertime I’m definitely more blessed than I am in the winter. I also believe we reap what we sow so we bring on the stuff that’s coming to it including but not limited to mood and depression. So how do I control how do I make it better because I know every single winter things don’t go as good as I want. It’s like the winter time is my punishment for the summertime.So the winter is when I need to do good, help my enemy so when that old winter-time comes  my life harvest won’t be tainted…..
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Where u are in life

I wonder  why I’m not you’re typical 34 year old. I try to be a good dude and I am. But I. Have no job and I hate that my grandparents look after me money wise. I’m tired all the time and maybe its a circumstance of being over thinking life is stepping all over me! Watching this thing on prisons and jails. Knowing and hoping and laying life in the hands of the most high JAH.  Never do I wanna hurt my ppl again by being locked up even though at times I feel I’m better off because I look after my own self with the twenty dollars here and there from family. But its better than what they do now. Always given me money. But JAH says he has a mission for me!!!! I hope I don’t fail
                                                                                       The self prophet

I wonder why

It’s seems not fair. But it’s thought and it’s my own.

Where did it come from and

I wonder why it even appeared

with such unmistakable, pure, soul-destroying ( my own )

hate..

not a prejudice hate, and thank JAH

cause I could not live with that..

But it was hate for someone..

Just one person.

Who I loved as well.. !

Not in a relationship way by far.

Than I started see

things very clear

Their souls spoke to me

Not all

but some

And the one’s that

had hate I could feel it’s misery

But thank JAH I only have that

terrible

feeling for one person

one other person I do not hate but in my eyes I can not hate him

for

1 you have to had been  loved, loved someone  or still love someone in order order to hate that person

2 he in my eyes is lower than a human so.. I feel more sorry than hate him.. Cause what he has to

live with is just sick, utterly sick.

Every glance in the mirror he knows its him ..

and nothing could be worse than that

so in order to hate a person like that may wipeoutyour soul—-p