one of the prisons they held me captive at

one of the prisons they held me captive at

As much as I try not to get angry with ppl I do!! I mean some people are just so stinking dumb, how can you not become angry with them. Thing is , anger is so negative   I have been having a problem here lately with being negative. So I have decided to be positive. Think in a positive manner, do positive things because as you know what you give this life, that is what life will give you .. I just have to keep reminding myself that.. I love to write as well as take pictures ,so that is one positive thing I am going  to do more, well two things.. Write and take and edit my pictures.. The way I look at things is like this… Our body is a vessel that holds good and bad.. The more bad the less good there is inside your heart.. To have a better life or should I say feel less dirty is simple replace the evil with good. At first its hard but just like with anything once you start it becomes a GOOD habit..

  Being negative is so much easier than being positive , does that tell you anything ?.. Let me put it this way , you can not have a nice house if you put no effort into getting  one .. Same thing with life, you put no effort into having a good one , then you get what is given, and that is usually shit..

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What now OO back there again? oo damn ?

You think being free is easy, I have watched show after show of x cons being locked up and let out and the most scared  look I seen  through out the whole gosh darn show is when they were being let out and it shouldn’t be that way.

You know why they were scared , no one prepared them for the Gosh DARN OUTSIDE THEY WERE THROWN OUT THERE AND EXPECTED TO MAKE IT.. and here is the kicker by doing the thing the only thing they know how.. Hustle aka break the fucking law.. How will they eat after the last at least 4 5 years they had been fed at a certain time. Now they must feed them selves. And the better find work fast cause the 45 bucks they get for being an inmate longer than 2 years is gonna be gone soon.. Than what.. Rob someone sell drugs.. They are getting hungry, is this really better than being locked up.. To the Con, sadly no it is not.. They have no clue how to survive out here being a honset person. and lets face it who really is honest and its all in who you know.. and if you know no one than what …



the pic was where i stayed for 18 months out of my 5


No matter where we go it always follows us..

it never strays to far..

Like a GOSH DARN monkey climbing 

all up and down the 

back of a junky

I never know where to turn next 

it keeps 

taring me


I seen me 

at the bus


the other day 

I was cancer 


and my life

was not

in the grasp

of reality

I was with-out home

and I better 

get going or

I’ll never 

ever be 

that man I need

to be


I wonder why

It’s seems not fair. But it’s thought and it’s my own.

Where did it come from and

I wonder why it even appeared

with such unmistakable, pure, soul-destroying ( my own )


not a prejudice hate, and thank JAH

cause I could not live with that..

But it was hate for someone..

Just one person.

Who I loved as well.. !

Not in a relationship way by far.

Than I started see

things very clear

Their souls spoke to me

Not all

but some

And the one’s that

had hate I could feel it’s misery

But thank JAH I only have that


feeling for one person

one other person I do not hate but in my eyes I can not hate him


1 you have to had been  loved, loved someone  or still love someone in order order to hate that person

2 he in my eyes is lower than a human so.. I feel more sorry than hate him.. Cause what he has to

live with is just sick, utterly sick.

Every glance in the mirror he knows its him ..

and nothing could be worse than that

so in order to hate a person like that may wipeoutyour soul—-p